I have a curious sense of optimism building up. Dare I let it sweep over me? Hmmm.

Allow me to elucidate.

I find it curious the things that have effects on me. You’d suppose that ‘normal’ things would motivate me. Due to many things, not least how I was made to feel as a kid, the ‘normal’ things tend to unsettle me. I have this weird need for approval from people I have never met and am never likely to. When I get it, I feel such a surge of positivity. This is not a trait I am proud of but we all need that endorphins boost of feeling good so I’ll take it for now. Sue me.

Regular readers (arf!) may recall the nonsense I had to deal with regarding my neighbour upstairs. Well I am chuffed to report that for the past four months, he’s been behaving. It’s actually off if I *do* hear a noise from upstairs so yay. It has to be better for him too that he’s not getting crap all the time but it’s a good sitch right now. Well, Tracey, the lady from the council who helped me with all that, has now become the manager of a council operation called the “Housing Support Unit”. Their office (I kid you not) is thirty yards away from the block I live in.

Somehow, what with the neighbour thing and also Tracey having observed me helping mentor a group of adults learning new skills, I seem to have impressed her greatly. To the point where she has obtained permission for me to work on a volunteer basis in the HSU office and, pending a CRB check (see below!), I can work alongside the team helping adults in varying circumstances who may be in danger of losing their home or they require help in some fashion. On Tuesday next week, I am to be introduced to her boss. Tracey is currently putting together a plan to obtain financing for the unit for the next three years that is due to be heard in March. Whilst there is never any guarantee for these things, she is quietly confident. If it is successful, the unit will be recruiting new staff and, oh look, we seem to have someone right here… Eek! Etc. I would love it to bits if I could realise this.

I shall keep you posted.

Regarding that guff about approval earlier, I got two bursts of “approval” in the post today. The first one was a clean CRB check that will allow me to do the work with Tracey and her team (Yes!) and the second was my Security license. I am now licensed to kil… oh wait, nooo, I am licensed to be a security operative so I can seek positions in that area. For some reason I had this sense that I would not get either (no reason, just a lack of confidence.) but huzzah! I got both, hence the endorphins rush…

Imagination running riot starts… now!